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I was lying on my bed when he came.
We haven’t met for a while, since I was hospitalized for four days.
I was glad and happy to see his face again. I had this “feeling” for him.
A “strange” feeling, it started months ago. But he doesn’t know that.

We spent the afternoon reading books, and talking about silly topics while laughing out loud.
We have a lot of things in common.
he is a quite person but somehow I could have a warm conversation with him. Always.
Not to mention, I love his smile, a mysterious yet very sweet smile.
And I could never tell what exactly that he had in mind.
I tried to guess by looking through his eyes, but I couldn’t
That deep and dark eyes made my heart melt instantly.
Maybe that’s how I started to have interest in him.


Four hours passes by, I didn’t realized that.
I was too busy “enjoying” my time with him.
He sat beside my bed, reading his book
I was reading mine

Suddenly he moved, sitting right beside me. On the bed.
Still reading his book, while leaning his back on the wall.


Well, I guess I didn’t mind, I’m in the middle of my reading.
So I let him.
Since he’s in bed, to get comfortable, I also leaned on the wall


Not long after that, slowly he moved closer to me.
Almost leaning to me.

I thought he was sleepy and aiming for the pillow that was on my lap.

“You need this? Just take the pillow, I don’t need it”, I said.

“no,I don’t, but you should put the pillow away”, he replied.

I was confused, yet I still put the pillow away.
The next thing that happened was, ….

His head is already placed on my lap.
I was shocked. He noticed that.
And then, that dark and beautiful eyes were looking straight into mine.

“What is he doing?”, I asked myself

“Do you have any idea, what I’m going to say to you?”, he asked.

I couldn’t answer, I was speechless.

And then he got up, leaning much closer to me, our faces were only 2 inches away.

“Do you really have no idea about how I feel for you?”, he asked again.

I shook my head,
But deep down inside my heart
There’s a glimpse of hope……
That he might have the same feeling just like I had
That he loves me……..

My heart goes boom-boom….
The beat goes much faster….
I have no idea, how silly I must looked like in front of him

Suddenly, his phone rang
We got distracted, and I instantly tried to get up.
Trying as fast as I could to leave the room, while he was answering the phone.

I was too late
He already grabbed my hand
He pulled me towards him, and then ….
Out of the blue,


He kissed me…
He kissed me on the lips
Just for a second, he landed his lips on mine

I was freeze and almost cry

“Oh no! what happened”
He stole my first kiss…

My first kiss that I saved for my “Knight in shining armor”
Or maybe,
Could it possibly be him?
That, this man in front of me is my knight?

Seeing me, still wondering in questions.
He gave me the answer.
He gave the most beautiful smile I’ve ever seen in my life
And said, ‘ I love you!”.

I got up from my bed
looking around
and touch my lip…..
Thinking what just happened??!!
And then I took a deep breath
realizing that I’m in my bed
At home……..

Thank God, its just a dream.


Fiuuuuuuhhhh.

Waaahh maaf banget, belum sempet nulis banyak

gila, blog ini udah gw anggurin 6 bulan
w sering sih cek email, tapi jarang-jarang bisa update blog gw yang sederhana ini
hehehehehehe

i spent most of my time to look 4 job vacancies on the net..!!!
since that, i dont have much time to write in my blog.

theres a lot to tell but, so little time i have.

maybe i should find the right time to write all day long

ok, until then.... take care... buaaabbaaayyyy!!!!
c u!

Susahnya nyari kerja

Gillllaaaaaa ya. hari gini nyari kerja lebih susah daripada nyari jarum ditumpukan jerami.
gue sering banget kena tipu sama perusahaan yang ngakunya bonafit, tapi cuma dimulut doank.
Buka lowongan tapi posisi yang ditawarkan sebenernya ga ada. udah buang-buang waktu gue. belum lagi keluar ongkos yang lumayan. Hiks..hiks.....!!!!1

capeeeekkk deeehhhhh.
bokap gw yang udah pengalaman cuma bisa bilang pissss aja gitulohhhh..!!!

belum sempet bikin profil neh
ntar dulu ya, kalo w punya waktu agak banyakan
baru w bikin lengkap

ntar deh w ganti foto yang baru
itu juga kalo sempet yeeee
hehehhehe

eits..!!!

ini bukan adegan ranjang loh...
hihihihi...

this is my first time....!!!

wah mau nulis apa ya, jadi bingung sendiri
gatau kenapa, tibatiba aja pengen bikin blog sendiri
abis kedengerannya ask seeeeehhhh